Let’s talk about cookies.

I’m sad and sulking. Lonnie is working the overnight shift tonight 7pm to 730am, and he did last night too. This is a VERY new thing that is going to take some serious getting used to. Pre Phit-n-phat, I would be at least 2 glasses of wine in, and I would have a bag of combos on one side of me and a bag of sour patch kids on the other.  I would happily, mindlessly sip-n-snack the evening away.  (side note: my mouth is LITERALLY watering right now.)

20180928_1845353168245248560510295.jpgI didn’t put wine, or sour patch kids, or combos on my plan I wrote this morning. So I won’t have them. What WILL be going on my plan this weekend, and I WILL be having is COOKIES!!  Something reminded me of Nestle ‘break and bake’ chocolate chip cookies that were filled with peanut butter they used to sell. I think they were discontinued years ago. They were SO. DAMN. GOOD. Ooey and gooey. Chewy and chocolately. Sweet and Salty. And let’s not forget peanutbuttery.

So I am trying to find a way to make them. Nicole suggested freezing a little block of peanut butter and wrapping the dough around. A solid idea, but I think the cold will slow the baking down and the cookies would dry out before the dough melted.

Screenshot 2018-09-28 at 6.56.06 PM.pngThen I found a recipe for chocolate peanut butter filled cookies. It suggests mixing the peanut butter with powdered sugar and rolling it into balls to wrap the dough around. Will it be too sweet?

You know what!? I’m going to try it both ways!  And any other ways I stumble upon….

You know what else!? Wine is going on my plan for tomorrow 😉

I shoulded myself

screenshot_20180908-152911_instagram7622036206274700989.jpgA couple things my guru, Corinne Crabtree, preaches are coming into play hardcore this lately.

  1. If you want to make a big LASTING change, you have to make several micro-changes to head you down that road.
  2. Stop shoulding on yourself. (Say it out loud. It’s fun!)  (Here’s a link to one of her podcasts focused on shoulding, but she talks about it a lot!)

I want to get up and exercise before work a couple days a week because of my busier schedule does not allow me time to get exercise in after work/school/internship. I put it on my schedule last week twice and it didn’t happen. Wednesday morning the air was delightfully cold and dry and my husband was delightfully warm and snuggly. Yesterday, I just plain didn’t want to get up- and I had a headache.  In review, I see super-early-A.M. exercise doesn’t belong  on my plan yet until I have practiced getting up at 5:30am. By putting it on my schedule, I am setting myself up for failure and telling myself I don’t have to follow my own schedule. I have spent my entire life quitting on myself and teaching myself how to quit on myself by setting myself up for failure and accepting failure as the truth of who I am. Someone who starts things. Lots of things. So many things. Sad. (<— hahaha @ me channeling my inner Trump).

Back to early morning exercise. I have already made several of the micro-changes needed to get me to this goal…

  • I don’t stay up late anymore
  • I get up pretty early now already (just not 5:30ish ) in comparison to 2 years ago me who sometimes slept until I had to work at noon. NOON!
  • I’ve made exercise part of daily life. I decided long ago on a daily minimum of 15 minutes. Literally everyone has 15 minutes to do SOMETHING- even if bedtime has rolled up on ya… you can do 15 minutes of bedtime yoga. 15 minutes may not seem like much, but 1. 90% of the time I go much longer and 2. 15 minutes is better than zero minutes. 3. Doing this has created a solid foundation for me to build on.

One thing I know Corinne would recommend is an accountability partner. I am fighting this one because, well, shit. I guess because I don’t want to really do it. Damnit. As I type this out, I guess I need to find one. BUT HERE ARE MY GREAT EXCUSES NOT TO….

  • I don’t like people. Especially new people. I’m in Corinne’s facebook group and because she did a recent talk on accountability partners, they are all posting asking for partners and stuff and I am like….EW. NO NEW PEOPLE!  WHAT IF THEY ARE NEEDY AND WANT TO BE, LIKE…. FRIENDS!!??? GROSS! LOL
  • I don’t keep my phone in my room at night, so having someone that texts or calls me at 5:30 isn’t going to work.
  • I am barely responsible for my own shit, let alone someone else’s!
  • I have Lonnie. (However… you read above and saw how well that has worked out so far)

I just texted my bff Nicole. I think she does morning shit.  Is that cheating?  Should I be broadening my horizons with that whole ‘new people’ thing? Hmmmm…….

So this week’s plan: Get up at 5:30 every day. Not putting the early morning exercise on the plan this week, but if I feel like it, I’ll do it. But as long as I get up… I’m showing up for myself!