I’m offended at your offense of my being offended.

Screenshot 2019-07-24 at 8.53.34 AMI saw this article posted yesterday in a facebook group, and it was a HOT TOPIC! Is anything NOT a hot topic anymore though? Really? The old saying, “Opinions are like assholes, everybody’s got one!,” has never rung truer. And actually,  even that saying could spark a debate about it’s being exclusive to those who had anal cancer or some other issue that resulted in them being assholeless.

So, FIRST OF ALL- BRAVO to Macy’s because this is a BRILLIANT marketing scheme. Let’s all realize this for what it is.

2nd of all- The plates are just dumb. A plate of salad would put you “mom jeans” territory.

And of course, 3rd of all- the ultimate destination:

I thought a lot about the whole issue here, and for me, these things boil down to, “What message do you want to put out into the world to make it a better place?”

I think the world would be a better place if women weren’t judged by the amount of fat they have on their bodies or the amount of food they put in their face.

Therefore, I think these plates are sending an unnecessary message into the world. I think about people who own these plates and have little girls growing up seeing the message EVERY DAY that you should only eat that much food if you want to be “good.” Then add in someone who has boys too; little boys who grow up seeing every day that girls should only be eating tiny amounts to meet society’s standards but as boys, they can do whatever they want! I picture a 6yo brother and sister sitting at a table with these plates in from them and the messages they ate getting and think, perhaps, these plates don’t really need to be a thing that exists only to contribute to archaic ideas about what it means to be a woman?

But as we know, opinions are like assholes, everybody’s got one and cares more about thiers than anyone else’s.

Dr. Laura hates fat people, and really is an idiot. ​Yet I keep listening.

Dr. Laura:  How tall are you and what do you weigh?
Glutton for punishment: 5′ 6″ 240
Dr. Laura: You are in a medical emergency.  You need to see a doctor right away. And it needs to be a doctor whose expertise is people who are grossly overweight.  You can’t do this on your own, you need to be under a doctor’s care.  A doctor who specializes in people who are GROSSLY. OVER. WEIGHT.
Glutton for punishment: Well I am in a fitness challenge right now where we all exercise and eat right and stuff like that.

Dr. Laura: You shouldn’t be doing that.  I don’t like that.  You are way too far gone to be doing it that way.  You need to see a doctor and maybe have one of those stomach-shrinking procedures. I really don’t like those challenges for people that far gone.  It’s dangerous.

(Dr Laura also tossed in some “lazy, and undisciplined” remarks too, just to make sure she was getting her point across)

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From this challenge, exercise, and healthy food loving fat chick.  F–K YOU!

 

Grossly overweight.  How about GROSSLY UNPROFESSIONAL!!!???  A person calls you, a “professional,” for advice on why you have trouble staying motivated to lose weight, and you tell her to stop exercising and eating healthy food. And then flippantly insist to her that only an invasive surgery with a 10-50% percent success rate (depending on what study you read) will help her.  I can’t even imagine how disappointed that woman must have been when she hung up that phone. I’ll bet you a dollar that ice cream was consumed soon thereafter, because, why bother?  A “professional” told her that her efforts were useless.

I would say that 80 percent of Dr. Laura’s calls are her telling people to eliminate negative and destructive people from their lives. After 20 years of listening, consider yourself eliminated, Dr. Negative.

 

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Me.  Somehow living through a jog.  On a hot day EVEN!

 

 

Body acceptance AKA Santa

So dusty…..  Time to clean it up and face reality. 

Today I read a post on Emily Nolan’s blog about her decision to lose weight.  This decision is huge because she is a large part of the ‘body-acceptance-love-the-skin-you’re-in’ movement.  I don’t know her entire life history or anything, but I think she is a plus-sized model.  (Ok… maybe my mind just has her grouped in with Ashley Graham, Danika Brysha and assume she is also a model? …but I DO know that she was doing something with Lululemon at some point, so I think I am right. —hey…there is no research team here at Constant Commentary!)  The backlash on these ‘not size 0’ ladies when they lose weight is absolutely disgusting, but…. I get it.  I would never SAY the horrible things that I see people say on their insta-blog-tweet-fbs, but I get it.

As I read her post today, I was annoyed at her talking about her focus on the numbers on the scale and at the same time trying to say that we should not focus on the numbers on the scale.  I was honestly just annoyed in general, so I sat with that for awhile.  WHY was I annoyed? Who the fuck am I to be annoyed?  I think it boils down to 2 things:

 1. These ladies are our champions in a world that tells us every day that we don’t look like we should, so when they jump ship, we feel betrayed.

2. If they are losing weight, then they never really bought into the fact that you can be pretty AND fat, so we cannot buy into it either.  AND If #2 is the truth, we cannot rest easy (aka LAZY) in just saying “I love my curves!” and burying our heads in the sand about our unhealthy bodies.  And THAT ONE, my friends, stings a bit!

Is there really such a thing as body acceptance when you are fat?  I don’t believe there is.  It’s a myth.  Like Santa.  Something us chubby girls love to believe in, but when Christmas Eve comes along, we all know that fat bastard ain’t fittin’ down no chimney.

Sometimes you see things exactly when you need to.  I’ve been going pretty hard at fitness and eating right.  Since I was anti-scale, I have been relying on the fit of my clothes and how I feel, which is GREAT, however, without those black-and-white numbers, it’s easy to get down on yourself when you are “in a mood” and can’t see/feel those intangible improvements.  So after reading and thinking today, I dug out and dusted off my scale and learned that I’ve lost 15 pounds!  …and THAT, folks, is no myth!  🙂

Motivation

Some snaps from the 21-day challenge that I just SLAYED AND TOOK NO PRISONERS!!!

On June 27th I went to the doctor because I was a sicky-sicky and concerned about possible Lyme disease.  Not only was the number on the scale was no bueno, but I also had high blood pressure, which has never been an issue for me (except when I was pregnant).  She suspected that the HBP was due to illness, but said, “Well when we make your appointment for your yearly physical, we will want to check that again and possibly need to start treating it.”  We all know what that means. Drugs.  No, thank you.

I had already been exercising, and trying (<–note the word trying) to eat right, but I left at appointment feeling the need to kick things into gear and get into shape.  Part of my daily motivation was the August 25th appointment for a physical.  I daydream about going in and having a much better scale number and a normal blood pressure.  I daydream about the doctor (who I have never met) saying something about my weight and being able to say, "Well, as you can see, I have lost weight since my last visit here.  I run 3 miles every other day, and I do strength and flexibility training on the other days, so I'm good!"

Today they called and rescheduled my appointment for freaking October!  A tiny part of me feels like I have lost that ‘immediate motivator.’  I was even counting on that appointment to keep me in check during our upcoming trip to Vegas and Dallas since it was 2 days after arriving home.  Just a tiny part though… I have plenty of motivators in my husband, and even moreso the way I FEEL!  I am full of energy and yesterday I suddenly noticed that I had to be more careful shaving my legs because of the definition in my calves LOL!!!! 

I wasn’t going to join this month’s challenge group because we are traveling so much and have a lot going on, but maybe I should.  I may need those daily reminders and motivators.

Challenge complete!

So I finished another 3 week challenge.  I did not finish very strong, kinda let the ole PMS derail things.  I also have been under-the-weather the past few days with either the flu or lyme disease. Fantastic.

ANYWAY….

I am still off soda.  I don’t even miss it anymore.
I am am loving water!
I am starting to actually enjoy exercise again… (well except for the past couple days)

BUT….
I went to the doctor today (see above), and got weighed.  It was bad. Really bad. Makes me feel like all these great changes have been for nothing and that sucks.  It’s not like I don’t know why though.  I have been eating a lot of shit.  That dam convenience store down the road is the bane of my existence.  Especially since I am Mrs. Eatsmyfeelings and I am having a lot of feelings to eat lately!

My plan.  Give myself a break until Jessi heads to Richmond at the end of the week, then it’s FUCKING ON!  NO more convenience store. Continuing with working out.  And eating…?? I have no idea.  Should I weight watchers again?  Should I low carb?  Should I go back to the divorce diet of blow pops and only dinner?

New trip…. New goal.

We have an exciting new trip on the very distant horizon.  We are all super excited about it!!  And then…..

WA
WA
WAAAAA

I start researching our little mini-trip adventures and one of the ones that I am most excited about has a weight limit.  And I am 50 pounds over.  That is a lot of weight to lose.  FORTUNATELY, I have eleven months to do it.  UNFORTUNATELY, based on past experience, I lack confidence that I can do this.

I took the weekend to wallow in self-pity.  Then we went for a walk in the city forest, and I realized just how out-of-shape I am, and so then I wallowed in self-pity some more.  Not quite done with the wallowing, but tomorrow I plan to SPRING out of bed and get a good walk in before work.  Putting couch25k on the back-burner for now and am just going to walk walk walk walk walk walk……..

50 pounds to go……

Days 25, 26, AND 27

Maybe blog slacking means I need less motivational tools to keep going!
We managed to get our butts to the gym both days this weekend!   This morning was our Sunday morning yoga class and I LOVE LOVE LOVE IT!
My main focus at the gym is liftng weights and I am loving that too!  I love feeling strong and powerful.   If we have time and I am feeling like it, I do some run/walking on the treadmill.   Instead of couch to 5k, I am alternating running and walking for 1 minute each and will build up from there.   I worked with a trainer last year and he wasn’t too crazy about the couch to 5k program and recommended this instead.

As far as the eating part goes, it’s going great!  Yesterday Lonnie  and I went on a mini road trip.  The plan for our last stop was the grocery, but by the time we got there, we had hit a wall, hard.  There was talk of having a cheat day aND just buying some snacks, but I couldn’t do it.   And I honestly considered it, but no “bad food” even sounded appetizing enough to derail how great it have been feeling.  So instead we went home and had some chicken.  ….and some rum.  Hey nobody said I was a saint 😉