Happy New Year!

When I wasn’t working and doing fun stuff, I spent a good part of 2015 going back and forth about grad school.  I even applied to a couple.  But ultimately decided that I just don’t feel right adding to my already enormously high student loan mountain of debt.  …that is already growing since I am helping Jessi pay for college…. and interest of course.  I would love to get my Master’s.  I LOVE school and I would also love to be more marketable once we starting planning our move from Maine, and I have the time for it with the job I have now.  So if I could just win the lottery……    I have few regrets in life as everything I have lived through has made me the bucket of awesomesauce that I am today,  but I definitely regret spending all that money and time going to Husson University to get my teaching credentials.  I could have my graduate degree, and instead I have nothing since I didn’t finish the program by doing student teaching.  (THAT I do not regret, as I now know that teaching is NOT my calling!)

I have also spent a good part of the year eliminating things, and people, from my life–and my Facebook that cause me drama and discord.  I am instituting Flylady’s general philosophy of ‘If you look at it and it doesn’t make you smile, you don’t need it in your life.’  Perhaps in 2016 I can institute the actual housecleaning part of the Flyolady philosophy  LOL…. WHO ARE WE KIDDING!!??

So now…. I present to you (and future me)…..

My favorite moments in 2015!!!
BTW- You KNOW you are living your best life when you give up on narrowing down the moments to one per month!  🙂

February- We built an awesome new kitchen isalnd!
March- family trip to Mexico!
Lonnie gets some new wheels!  The first vehicle he has ever owned that he doesn’t have to worry, “Will I make it there?”

We got a pasta maker for Christmas and made a LOT of ramen in 2015.  YUMMMMMM
Ed Sheeran concert… that we enjoyed for FREE on a hill outside the venue!

A very chilly Train concert

LOTS of summer swimming

The Popham Beach camping trip that turned into a Portland, Maine hotel weekend 😉

I Kayaked for the first time!!  AND LOVED IT!  I also crocheted for the first time… that did not go quite as well 😉
LOTS OF ROAD TRIPS!!!  Aquaboggin…. Bar Harbor…. Boston…. Portland….

Jessi got her license AND bought herself a car!!

We never give up trying to get fit!  We also never really suceed… but we keep on trying!

Lonnie became a PAELLA MASTER!!

Mom came up and rented a cottage on the coast


Family trip to Beantown

SPORTS!!  Hockey and football games…. LOVE LOVE LOVE

NEW KITTEN!!  Gandolf aka Will Feral

Food and Spirits festival
Turkey Day!! …followed by the BEST BLACK FRIDAY EVER!!

A WONDERFUL CHRISTMAS SEASON (And no, most of those projects never happened lol)

Looking forward to LOTS MORE ADVENTURES in 2016!!

The grad school application essay that I am not going to write

When I was fifteen years old, I lived in a car with two guys.  I spent my days sleeping in the backseat and visiting my friends in the high school parking lot rather that going to school.  I was suspended,  and then expelled. I shoplifted a package of Twinkies from the Broadway Shop n’ Save because I was hungry.  I was arrested for inciting a riot.  Then I was arrested again because I didn’t return two movies and the store charged me with theft.  Then I broke into house of an ex-boyfriend to retrieve said movies (that he had refused to give back to me) and return them.  And… oh yeah, I was also a cutter.   ………………………..blah blah blah this all led me to want to pursue a career in social work as I feel that I can not only relate to those who are struggling, but I also feel like I am a pretty good example of the fact that one CAN come out on the other side of a bad place.

The past few months I had been pondering going to grad school to get my masters in social work.  I love school.  I love writing, and assignments, and having “stuff I have to get done.”  What I don’t love is student loan debt.  As of today, I have close to $80,000 of said debt.  I know people don’t often put their money situations ‘out there.’  Money is really the last taboo.  We will converse about our vaginas, our partner’s psych medications, and that weird mole on our ass that keeps on growing, but if you want to end a conversation in .002 seconds,  ask someone how much money they made last year.

Anyhoo… We needed to buy a second car last week.  Lonnie’s 2000 ford Explorer wasn’t going to pass inspection again.  We listed it for sale on Craigslist, assuming that it would take forever to sell, or wouldn’t sell at all and we would just take whatever we could in trade just to get rid of it.  WRONG.  I am STILL getting e-mails today about that stupid car that two guys came and picked up 2 days after I listed it.  Car gone.  Us with one car.  Not good.  So we scrambled to find a replacement.  WTF does this have to do with grad school, you ask?  Well, a super fun finance guy at the dealership took what seemed to be an opportunity that he had been waiting for all his life, to berate me about my student loan debt, and what exactly it is that I am now doing for work, and how I was ever going to pay that off as ‘just a social worker.’  And as much of a dick he was, he was right.  Not only was he right, but he highlighted what an ass I am for even considering adding to that pile of money that I need to pay back.

So grad school is not happening right now.  And unless I someday work for a company that is going substantially subsidize the endeavor, it may never happen.  And I am 90% ok with that.  OK maybe 80% …or possibly 75%?