So I finished another 3 week challenge. I did not finish very strong, kinda let the ole PMS derail things. I also have been under-the-weather the past few days with either the flu or lyme disease. Fantastic.
I am still off soda. I don’t even miss it anymore.
I am am loving water!
I am starting to actually enjoy exercise again… (well except for the past couple days)
I went to the doctor today (see above), and got weighed. It was bad. Really bad. Makes me feel like all these great changes have been for nothing and that sucks. It’s not like I don’t know why though. I have been eating a lot of shit. That dam convenience store down the road is the bane of my existence. Especially since I am Mrs. Eatsmyfeelings and I am having a lot of feelings to eat lately!
My plan. Give myself a break until Jessi heads to Richmond at the end of the week, then it’s FUCKING ON! NO more convenience store. Continuing with working out. And eating…?? I have no idea. Should I weight watchers again? Should I low carb? Should I go back to the divorce diet of blow pops and only dinner?
As I filled many little fake plastic eggs for my way-too-old-for-this children (one of which is 20), it was not lost on me that perhaps since I know that sugar is poison and really has no place in a healthy lifestyle, that I should not feed copious amounts of it to my kids on holidays. Particularly since my son definitely has a penchant to overdo. We recently stopped buying cereal after numerous warnings to him about the 1/4-1/2 cup of sugar we kept catching him adding to it. I have no illusions that at 14 years old, I am going to convince him to not eat sugar all the time. But I CAN control what he eats at home with us!
As I filled many little fake plastic eggs for my way-too-old-for-this children (one of which is 20), I had SEVERAL moments of weakness. The first of which was at Target when I was going to get the kids Peeps for their baskets with the sole purpose of my getting to eat some. The Peeps stayed in the cart for about 3 minutes and then went back on the shelf. This shit is not easy. My brain is a battlefield of;
“Maybe just a few pieces…”
“Maybe we should just take the weekend off and start back on Monday….”
“Wow, some of those m&ms in the microwave would be just perfect……”
I did not give in to the spoiled little girl inside that wants what she wants when she wants it!!! And I won’t today either.
And WHY not? Because I FEEL GOOD DAMNIT and I want to KEEP feeling good!