It was a cold and blizzardy day yesterday. Got around 8 inches…. and it snowed too!!
I never did make it to the gym. Then I got called to do an awake overnight shift at the children’s crisis unit. UGH. I did not bring any snacks with me as I was in a rush to get out the door, I probably couldn’t have eaten anyway, overnight shifts when I have to stay awake all night make me sick to my stomach and get raging headaches.
I DID make a responsible choice when I got home though and had a protein-filled small breakfast before hitting the sack.
As I was only able to sleep til around noon, I skipped the gym again today as I am a bit on the zombie side. I definitely could have gone. But I didn’t. I just HATE going out in the cold, trudging through the snow, warming up the car, scraping the car, and then getting back into the freezing car after the gym. I realize this is a ridiculous excuse.
I DID, however, stick to watching the carbs and didn’t eat through the rollercoaster of emotions I have ridden since last evening; exhaustion, frustration, annoyance, anger, boredom, not feeling well, trying to stay awake……
So…. still winning!
I read the most ANNOYING thing on Facebook yesterday that let me doubt myself for a few seconds….
If you want to finish it, you can click it.
I have thought about this a lot today, yesterday, a year ago….. really ever since I read those books about emotional eating. *Click here to read a few of my blogs I wrote while I was focused on this topic.
I completely agree with the basic I idea of that post. However, if I don’t control the shit I am eating by dieting, and making a conscious effort to avoid foods that trigger binges and cravings, I am NOT taking care of myself. And I want to feel good. Look good. Be able to do all the fitnessy, activityish stuff that I love to do.
So there. Screw you lady who is telling me that I am doing a stupid thing. Screw. you.