As we have established… for multiple reasons… I was a trainwreck in life #1. One of my many big issues was money. The spending of money. The not saving of money. The spending of money that was not there. The fighting about money. In case you are not getting it… money was a big problem in my marriage.
The smart solution to that would have been to find a rich dude 😉 …..but since that didn’t happen, I got the next best thing… an organized dude who is slightly more responsible than I am 😉
The biggest thing that I have learned about myself recently, is that I am an AVOIDER. I always THOUGHT I was a “charge in and take control” kind of girl… holy lack of self-awareness.
- I hate paying bills, so I avoid them by not even opening them, or looking at them and only paying them when the disconnect notice comes because THAT is the REAL bill when they REALLY want the money (LOL…. but seriously).
- I hate “dealing with things” like car registrations, changing bank information, insurance stuff, paperwork… so I just avoid it all until some catastrophe forces me to deal with them (like a police written warning… for example. LOL again… wow I suck.)
- I tend to just swipe my debit card and have a “general idea” of how much money is in there, avoiding actually LOOKING to see how much I have. I also tend to swipe that card even when I know there isn’t enough in there and bank on “pending time” skating me through til payday. Which as you may guess results in lots of overdraft fees when the roulette wheel doesn’t spin my way 😉
- As a result of #3… I HATE going online to look at my bank account. I get a queasy feeling in my stomach, and my heart pounds like crazy every day when I check it… especially when I have been hitting #3 pretty hard. So I avoid it… and sometimes only look on payday because I know then that it will be a positive balance.